I HAVE FOUND MY PLACE
I WILL BURN THE MIDNIGHT OIL
THE LAMP WILL BURN BRIGHT IN THE WINDOW TONIGHT
THE SNOW WILL NOT FROST MY HANDS

I SEE SORROW IN YOUR EYES
I SEE THE WIND BENEATH YOUR TOES

THE WORLD HAS GROWN DARK AS THE NIGHT HAS OVERTAKEN THE DAY
THIS TIME I WILL PREVAIL
THIS TIME I WILL SEE THIS THRU
TIME STANDS STILL IN THIS PLACE
FROM THE GROUND I CAME AND TO THE GROUND I WILL GO

THE END IS NEAR

LET THE PRESSURE FALL FROM YOU SHOULDERS
EMBRACE MY PASSION AND SEE THE WORLD IN A NEW LIGHT
TIME IS ALL I OWN
TIME IS AL I KNOW

COULD THE END BE THE BEGINNING?
OR
COULD THE BEGINNING BE THE END?

TIME DOES NOT HEAL ALL WOMBS
ONLY HONESTY CAN BRING FORTH TRUTH AND TRUE HEALING
THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOU AND I IS THAT I KNOW WHAT REALITY LOOKS LIKE
THE DISTANCE OF SILENCE IS THE HARDEST PART

TIME IS NOT ON MY SIDE

ITS FUNNY HOW TIME CHANGES SOMEONE. THE DIFFERENCE IN THE WAY THEY WALK AND THE WAY THE CARRY THEMSELVES. I WONDER WHAT THE WORLD WOULD LOOK LIKE IF WE ADOPTED THE POLICY OF LOYALTY. CAN WE CONTINUE TO LIVE WITH THE CHOICES WE MAKE WHEN WE CLEARLY KNOW THEY ARE WRONG?

POETRY

IM GOING TO START POSTING SOME POETRY/SONG LYRICS THAT I HAVE WRITTEN........


MAYBE TONIGHT ILL DROWN MY SORROWS IN WORDS UNSPOKEN.
ILL TAKE MY LAST BREATH WHEN THE GAVEL HITS THE TABLE
IN A MOMENT OF SILENCE MY LUNGS WILL GASP AND THE LIGHT WILL BEGIN TO FADE
DEATH IS AMUNGST ME AND I WILL GIVE INTO THE PAIN OF LIVING THIS TERRIBLE NIGHTMARE
MY LAST THOUGHT WILL BE THE WAY YOU LOOKED ON OUR WEDDING DAY AND THE PURE JOY OF HAPPINESS THAT I FELT AS YOU GRACED THE AISLE IN ALL WHITE
YOU LIT UP THE ROOM AS MY HEART FELT AN OVERWHELMING RUSH OF TRUE LOVE
I NEED YOU LIKE LUNGS NEED TO BREATHE

IF YOU DONT KNOW ABOUT THESE CAUSES I HOPE YOU TAKE THE TIME TO CHECK THEM OUT

I DONT PROMOTE MANY THINGS BUT HERE ARE TWO THAT I DO AND I THINK THAT YOU SHOULD CHECK THEM OUT.


WWW.TWLOHA.COM


WWW.TOMSSHOES.COM

WHY IS IT THAT PEOPLE OF "POWER" THINK THAT THEY ARE INVISIBLE?

WHY DO THEY THINK THAT THEY GET A "GET OUT OF JAIL FREE " CARD?

IS IT BECAUSE WE THE PEOPLE PLACE THEM ON SUCH A HIGH PEDESTAL THAT THEY THINK THEY ARE GOD? WHAT HAPPENED TO RESPONSIBILITY? WHAT HAPPENED TO REMEMBERING WHERE YOU CAME FROM? WHAT IF ATHLETES AND PEOPLE OF "POWER" TOOK IT SERIOUSLY AND REALIZED THAT PEOPLE LOOK UP TO THEM AND FOLLOW THEIR EVERY MOVE.

JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE FAMOUS AND MAKE A MILLION DOLLARS A YEAR YOU DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHEAT ON YOUR WIFE OR TO COMMIT A CRIME. YOU ARE NOT AN UNSTOPPABLE FORCE. YOU ARE A HERO, SOMEONE FOR KIDS TO LOOK UP TO.

WILL YOU LIVE UP TO THE CHALLENGE?

THE CHOICES WE MAKE WILL EITHER CARRY OUR LEGACY OR HAUNT US FOREVER.

I WONDER WHO YOU ARE A HERO TO? I WONDER IF YOU WILL LIVE UP TO THE EXPECTATION? I WONDER IF YOU KNOW YOU ARE A HERO?

I WONDER WHAT I WILL DO DIFFERENTLY TODAY TO CAUSE A POSITIVE CHANGE IN SOMEONES LIFE?

THE WOLVES

THIS IS HOW I FEEL TODAY. IF YOU WANT TO UNDERSTAND IT MORE YOUTUBE BON IVER THE WOLVES. WHEN YOU GET TO THE SONG CLOSE YOUR EYES TURN OFF THE LIGHTS AND CLEAR YOUR MIND. THEN PRESS PLAY



Someday my pain, someday my pain

Will mark you

Harness your blame, harness your blame

And walk through



With the wild wolves around you

In the morning, I'll call you

Send it farther on



Solace my game, solace my game

It stars you

Swing wide your crane, swing wide your crane

And run me through



And the story's all over you

In the morning i'll call you

Can't you find a clue when your eyes are all painted Sinatra blue



What might have been lost -

Don't bother me

TIME IS ALL I OWN, SO RIGHT HERE ILL WAIT.

THIS IS A STATEMENT THAT I LIVE BY. THE PAST THREE YEARS I HAVE JUGGLED LIFE UNTIL MY ARMS HAVE BECAME NUMB. I HAVE FOUGHT MANY BATTLES AN WON NEXT TO NONE. I HAVE LEARNED THAT PATIENCE IS A VURTUE BUT TO BE HONEST IT CAN SUCK MOST OF THE TIME.

MY LEFT ARM IS STILL NUMB FROM THE HEART ATTACK/STROKE THAT HAPPEND OVER TWO YEARS AGO AND EVERYDAY I WONDER IF IT WILL EVER COME BACK. TO BE HONEST OUT OF ALL THE THINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH IN MY LIFE THIS IS THE ONE THAT REALLY SETS ME BACK. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. ITS HARD FOR ME TO ASK FOR HELP. ITS HARD FOR ME TO STAY PATIENT AND HOPE FOR MY ARM TO RETURN TO WHAT IT ONCE WAS.

TIME IS ALL I OWN SO RIGHT HERE ILL WAIT

I FIND THE HOLIDAYS ONE OF THE MOST TRYING TIMES OF THE YEAR.

THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE

SOMETIMES I WONDER IF THE WHOLE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH SO HELP ME GOD IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. LET ME EXPLAIN.

I HAVE THIS SENSE ABOUT ME THAT EVERY TIME I FEEL SOMETHING I JUST SAY IT. I GUESS IM GUARDED. IM AFRAID OF THE UNKNOWN SO INSTEAD OF WAITING AND WONDERING I JUST COME RIGHT OUT AND SAY IT. SOMETIMES WITH REGRET AND SOMETIMES WITH RELIEF. I WONDER IF BY DOING THIS, DO I SHOOT MYSELF IN THE FOOT? I WONDER IF I WOULD JUST LET IT HAPPEN, WOULD THE OUTCOME BE DIFFERENT?

LOVE = A SCORE OF ZERO

SO WHAT IS YOUR DEFINITION OF LOVE? WHAT DOES LOVE MEAN TO YOU? IF YOU HAD TO WRITE A DEFFINITION OF LOVE WHAT WOULD IT SOUND LIKE? WOULD IT RENDER YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE WITH A PLAY BY PLAY OF BOY MEETS GIRL, THEY CANNOT LIVE WITH OUT EACH OTHER AND THE REST IS A FAIRYTALE.

MAYBE THE QUESTION THAT WE SHOULD ALL ASK EACH OTHER IS, DO WE EVEN BELIEVE IN LOVE? HOW CAN YOU LOVE SOMEONE IF YOU ARE NOT SURE OF ITS DEFINITION? WHAT IF YOU CAN HAVE A LOVE THAT LASTS FOREVER? WHAT IF LOVE IS VERY OBTAINABLE IN A WORLD THAT TELLS US THAT IT IS IMPOSSIBLE? WHAT IF OUR WHOLE LIVES WE HAVE HAD THE WRONG MINDSET AND WITH A SIMPLE CHANGE IN HABIT WE COULD CHANGE ALL OF OUR RELATIONSHIPS?

THESE ARE THE MANY QUESTIONS I ASKED MY SELF EVERYDAY FOR A VERY LONG TIME. IS LOVE OBTAINABLE? LONG LASTING NEVER FAILING LOVE.

THE ANSWER TO THIS QUESTION IS YES. IT IS NOT AN EASY YES AND WILL TAKE MUCH WORK AND COMMITMENT BUT NONE THE LESS THE ANSWER IS YES.

ONE GREAT MOMENT CAN ERASE A LIFE TIME OF BAD ONES

TODAY I WATCHED A MOVIE ABOUT A COUPLE WHO WERE IN A RELATIONSHIP AND WHEN THEY BROKE UP THEY WANTED TO HAVE THE MEMORIES OF EACH OTHER ERASED. AFTER THEY HAD THEIR MEMORIES ERASED THEY ENDED UP MEETING EACH OTHER AGAIN AND FALLING IN LOVE.

THIS GOT ME THINKING. WOULD I WANT ALL OF THE "BAD" MEMORIES IN MY LIFE ERASED? WOULD I WANT TO WAKE UP ONE DAY AND FORGET ABOUT THE ONE THAT I HAVE LOVED FOR SO LONG? WOULD ALL OF THE BAD MEMORIES OUT WEIGH THE GOOD ONES?

I THINK THAT YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE BAD WITH THE GOOD. I THINK THAT NO MATTER HOW MANY BAD THINGS HAPPEN IN YOUR LIFE THAT ONE GREAT MOMENT CAN ERASE ALL OF THE BAD ONES. WITHOUT THE BAD MEMORIES WE HAVE NOTHING TO LEARN FROM. WE WILL BE STUCK IN THE SAME ROTATION UNTIL THE DAY WE DIE.

ALL THE BRICKS IN BROOKLYN

MORE LYRICS FOR THE SHOW

" I WANT YOU TO KNOW
JUST HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE
BUT I CANT DESCRIBE IT ALL
BECAUSE MY WORDS WONT COME OUT RIGHT
THAT
YOU MEAN MORE
THAN LIFE TO ME ME AND
I WANT YOU TO KNOW
HOW I FEEL TONIGHT

THE NIGHT SKIES LAPSE
AND THE SUN WILL RISE AGAIN
MY HEART IT BEATS
ONLY FOR YOU


I NEED YOU
LIKE LUNGS NEED TO BREATHE

BREATHING UNDERWATER

IM GOING TO POST SOME LYRICS FOR THE SONGS I WILL BE SINGING THIS MONTH WHEN I PLAY

"THESE SHEETS THEY SCREAM YOUR NAME
THIS PILLOW IS DRENCHED IN TEARS
I DIED ONE LAST TIME TONIGHT
AND SO DID WE


DEEP BREATH AND HOLD ON
TONIGHT IS ALMOST OVER
DEEP BREATH AND HOLD ON
TONIGHT IS ALMOST OVER

MY HEART IS BIGGER THAN YOUR HEART

SO TONIGHT ON THE WAY HOME I HAD AN AWESOME CONVERSATION ABOUT LOVE AND CHOICE AND CHOOSING ECT. WHILE IN THE CONVERSATION WE TALKED ABOUT THE AMOUNT OF LOVE YOU CAN GIVE AND HOW WE MAKE IT SUCH A GAME. FOR EXAMPLE, "I WISH YOU COULD LOVE ME LIKE I LOVE YOU" OR "I LOVE YOU MORE". WHAT IF WE DIDN'T MEASURE LOVE? WHAT IF WE SAID I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME AS MUCH AS YOU CAN TODAY. IS IT REALLY A COMPETITION? HAVE WE MADE IT THAT? DO WE WANT SOMEONE TO ONLY LOVE US BECAUSE THEY ARE TRYING TO TOP OUR LAST MOVE. WHAT IF WE DID NOT WEIGH LOVE? I STILL WANT TO BE CHOSEN, I STILL WANT TO BE LOVED BUT SHOULD LOVE BE PLACED ON A SCALE AND THE WINNER GETS A PRIZE?

ARE MY THOUGHT PURE OR ARE THEY JUST THOUGHTS?

I WISH I HAD ALL THE ANSWERS. I WISH THAT I HAD A CRYSTAL BALL. BUT EVEN WHEN I WISH THESE THINGS I TEND TO WONDER IF IT WOULD CHANGE ANYTHING. I TEND TO WONDER IF MY WILL WOULD GET IN THE WAY OF WHAT THE CRYSTAL BALL IS REALLY SAYING. I BET IF I HAD ALL THE ANSWERS I WOULD STILL MANIPULATE THEM TO BE WHAT I WANTED/NEEDED THEM TO BE.

I HAVE REALLY BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS A LOT AND I CANT HELP BUT THINK THAT MY SELFISH NATURE WOULD DISRUPT EVEN THE PURIST OF THOUGHTS. IN MOST CASES THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WRONG AND RIGHT IS PERCEPTION. (I MEAN ITS WRONG TO KILL SOMEONE BUT IS IT WRONG TO STEAL IF YOU ARE HUNGRY AND HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO MEANS FOR FOOD?)

SO ALL OF THAT TO BRING ME TO THE THOUGHT THAT EVEN WANTING ALL THE ANSWERS AND HAVING A CRYSTAL BALL MAKES ME EXTREMELY SELFISH. I WOULD MISS ALL OF LIFES SURPRISES AND NEVER LEARN A THING IF I HAD EITHER ONE OF THESE. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE WE LEARNED FROM OUR MISTAKES? LIFES BIGGEST LESSSIONS COME FROM MISTAKES WE HAVE MADE. WITH ALL THE ANSWERS WE WOULD BE LAME HUMANS WITH A LACK OF LOVE AND RESPECT. SO TODAY I CHALLANGE YOU TO LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES AND NOT REGRETE LIFE IN ITS PUREST FORM.


"IM NOT AFRAID TO MAKE BIG MISTAKES, IM NOT AFRAID TO FALL FLAT ON MY FACE" —— THE ALMOST

MY MY MY, MY MY MY, MY MY

"I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines"

PAST, PRESENT OR FUTURE.

I WONDER IF WE COULD GO BACK TO THE OLD DAYS WERE ALL WE NEEDED IN LIFE WAS SOMEONE TO MAKE US SMILE. WHEN LOVE WAS SIMPLE AND OUR OWN STUPIDITY DID NOT DISRUPT SOMETHING GREAT. I WONDER IF FEAR DRIVES US TO A POINT WERE WE DO NOT TRUST OURSELVES. I GUESS IM JUST OLD FASHIONED(WITH TATTOOS OF COURSE)

A TIME FOR CHANGE, A TIME FOR LIFE

I HAD LUNCH WITH A FAMILY FROM CHURCH YESTERDAY AND WHILE I WAS AT THEIR HOME I SPENT A LOT OF TIME WITH THE KIDS. I LISTENED TO STORY AFTER STORY AND TO BE HONEST I DONT REMEMBER ANY OF THEM BUT WHAT I DO REMEMBER IS THE JOY I FELT JUST LISTENING. FOR A LONG TIME I HAD NO DESIRE FOR KIDS BUT IN THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS MY DESIRE HAS INCREASED WITH EVERY PASSING DAY. THIS IS A WEIRD FEELING TO BE HONEST BECAUSE FOR SO LONG I HAD ZERO DESIRE. LIFE IS CHANGING AND I FEEL GOOD ABOUT WHERE IT IS GOING

WHO AM I

I AM ONLY A MAN........ I AM ONLY A MAN WHO MAKES MISTAKES......... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO DESIRES LOVE........... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO KNOWS NO TRUTH.......... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO LONGS FOR GREATNESS........ I AM ONLY A MAN WHO LOVES VIDEO GAMES........ I AM ONLY A MAN WHO LOVES TO SNUGGLE...... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO IS LOOKING FOR YOU.......... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO DESIRES PEACE....... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO WANTS A FAMILY......... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO HAS TATTOOS....... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO LIVES IN THE SEMI GHETTO........ I AM ONLY A MAN WHO WISHES HE COULD START OVER...... I AM ONLY A MAN WHO SINGS SAD SONGS........ I AM ONLY A MAN WHO WRITES BLOGS LIKE THIS........... I AM ONLY A MAN

WHAT DO YOU LONG FOR?

TODAY I SAW THE CLASSIC 70 PLUS COUPLE WALKING AROUND THE GROCERY STORE HOLDING HANDS AND IT MADE ME THINK OF THAT DIAMOND COMMERCIAL WITH THE OLDER COUPLE WALKING THROUGH THE PARK. EVERY TIME I SEE THAT COMMERCIAL OR SOMETHING LIKE IT IT MAKES ME WONDER IF OUR GENERATION HAS LOST WHAT THEY HAVE. I THINK OF MY GRANDPARENTS AND HOW THEY HAVE BEEN TOGETHER SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME AND WONDER... DID THEY JUST STUCK IT OUT OR WAS IT LOVE THE WHOLE TIME? WAS IT AN EXPECTATION THAT A MARRIAGE WAS FOREVER? WE ALL KNOW THE VOWS WE ALL KNOW WHATS RIGHT AND WRONG BUT WE ALSO KNOW THAT NOT EVERY MARRIAGE IS FOREVER. BUT THE QUESTION I TEND TO WONDER THE MOST IS........ DO WE GO INTO RELATIONSHIPS HALF HEARTED WITH THE EXPECTATION THAT IT WILL NOT LAST? IS LOVE A LOST ART FORM? IS IT JUST A BY STANDARD TO HELP US MAKE IT FROM DAY TO DAY, A SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE WAY OF LIFE? DO WE REALLY TAKE IT SERIOUSLY?

I LONG FOR THE DAY THAT I AM 70 AND CAN WALK THROUGH THE GROCERY STORE WITH MY WIFE AND HOLD HANDS SETTING THE EXAMPLE FOR THE NEXT ONES IN LINE. I LONG FOR THE MORNING SUN TO HIT MY BROW AND FOR MY NEXT THOUGHT TO BE OF HER. I LONG FOR DINNER AT DINNER TABLES WITH A QUIET SENSE OF HAPPINESS. I LONG FOR DREAMS THAT BECOME A REALITY AND A LIFE THAT IS FILLED WITH JOY.

BEARD

OK SO TONIGHT I DECIDED TO GROW MY BEARD OUT UNTIL THE CAVS WIN THE CHAMPIONSHIP. THEY HAVE BEEN IN THE LEAUGE FOR FORTY YEARS AND HAVE NOT WON IT YET. THIS COULD GET INTERESTING.

WHERE DO YOU GET YOUR STRENGTH FROM?

SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO DO THE RIGHT THING EVEN WHEN IT HURTS THE MOST. PAIN TURNS TO STRENGTH AND STRENGTH TURNS TO WILL

I KNOW NO TRUTH I ONLY KNOW WHAT I KNOW

I WONDER IF WE WORRY TO MUCH. I WONDER IF WE ARE REALLY IN CONTROL OF ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR THE MOMENT WE ARE IN. I WONDER IF LOVE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD. I WONDER IF FEAR DRIVES US. I WONDER WHAT A FAMILY FEELS LIKE. I WONDER WHAT YOU THINK WHEN I WALK INTO THE ROOM. I WONDER HOW LIFE WOULD BE DIFFERENT IF I WOULD BE BOLDER. I WONDER IF ANYONE REALLY READS THIS THING

I THINK I AM AFRAID OF BEING ALONE

TODAY I HAVE REALIZED THAT I HAVE BEEN LONELY MOST OF MY LIFE. NOW I KNOW THAT IS A BOLD STATEMENT BUT I REALLY THINK THAT IT IS TRUE. HERE IS WHY.

I HAVE A HARD TIME BEING BY MYSELF. IN FACT I WOULD ALMOST CALL IT A FEAR. I HATE IT. I HAVE HELD ON TO FRIENDS, RELATIONSHIPS AND EVEN FAMILY MEMBERS WAY TO LONG JUST SO I WOULD NOT HAVE TO BE ALONE. I WONDER WHY THIS IS? IS IT IN MY DNA? ARE WE MADE UP OF THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS THAT TELL US TO FIND A COMPANION? WELL NONE THE LESS I HATE IT AND IT IS AN INTERESTING THOUGHT TO SAY THE LEAST.

CLEVELAND CAVALIERS

THE CAVS WON THEIR FIRST GAME OF THE SEASON TONIGHT AND THIS MAKES ME HAPPY.

CHOICES, CHOICES

WITH EVERY CHOICE WE MAKE THERE IS A CONSEQUENCE. WITH EVERY ACTION A REACTION. FOR THE VERY FEW OF YOU WHO READ MY BLOG OR ANYONE WHO REALLY KNOWS WHO I AM AND WHAT IM ABOUT WILL KNOW THAT I BELIEVE LOVE IS A CHOICE.

WHO WE SPEND OUR DAY WITH IS A CHOICE. WHO WE WAKE UP NEXT TO IS A CHOICE. THE QUESTION I HAVE FOR YOU IS THIS. DO YOU CHOOSE LOVE? TAKE YOUR RELATIONSHIP ONE STEP FURTHER. DO YOU ACTIVELY CHOOSE LOVE? IM SURE MOST OF US WILL SAY YES. MOST OF US WILL SAY SURE I LOVE MY WIFE OR HUSBAND OR PARTNER, BUT DO YOU REALLY? IS THE LOVE YOU HAVE FABRICATED FROM A HOLLYWOOD STAND POINT? ARE YOU WAKING UP EVERYDAY WITH A FAIRYTALE ENDING?

THE LOVE I HAVE COME TO KNOW IS THIS. SACRIFICE, PAIN, ECT. THINK ABOUT THE WEDDING VOWS. "BETTER OR WORSE, RICH OR POORER, SICKNESS AND IN HEALTH"

IM NOT SAYING THAT IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE THAT IT IS ALWAYS A HARDSHIP, IN FACT I AM SAYING THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE, BUT WHAT IM ASKING YOU IS THIS. ARE YOU READY FOR THE HARD TIMES? ARE YOU JUST GOING THREW THE MOTIONS?

CHOOSE LOVE MY FRIENDS. IF YOU WAKE UP EVERYDAY AND MAKE THE CHOICE TO LOVE YOU SPOUSE/LOVER ECT YOU WILL WIN AT THIS GAME OR AT LEAST HAVE A FIGHTING CHANCE.

GOLDEN DRAGON

TONIGHT I AM GOING TO GOLDEN DRAGON WITH MY FRIENDS AND IM GOING TO GET YES FROM THE EXPERIENCE. THAT IS ALL.

MARATHON

I FEEL LIKE I RUNNING A MARATHON. EXCEPT THAT THE PACE I WOULD LIKE TO BE RUNNING IS DIFFERENT THAN THE RACE I AM SO LONGING TO EXCAPE FROM. WITH EACH NEW DAY I FIND SOMETHING THAT JUST THROWS ME FOR A LOOP. WITH MY RECENT ADVENTURE CALLED DIVORCE, IM FINDING THAT I HAVE TO DO THINGS ONE HUNDRED PERCENT DIFFERENT. EXAMPLE YOU SAY.... WELL I HAVE TO GET RID OF MY CAR, THAT IS IN BOTH OF OUR NAMES THAT I HAVE BEEN PAYING THE BETTER PART OF 500 DOLLARS A MONTH FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS. WELL MAYBE THAT PART IS NOT TO BAD EXCEPT THAT WHEN TODAY I GO TO THE DEALER TO SEE WHAT HE WILL GIVE ME FOR IT AND THE DIFFERENCE IS 11K. YIKEES. SO DEAR MARATHON FRIEND OF MINE GIVE ME YOUR BEST SHOT CAUSE TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY.

WAR IS ONLY SKIN DEEP

MAKE YOUR SPINE JUST LIKE YOUR PRIDE AND IF YOU FIND A HEART I HOPE IT BLEEDS GRACE.

LOVE IS AROUND THE CONRNER

"LOVE IS AROUND THE CORNER". THIS WAS MY FORTUNE FROM MY FAVORITE CHINESE PLACE EARLIER THIS WEEK. I NORMALLY DONT REALLY READ INTO MY FORTUNES THAT OFTEN BUT I JUST HAPPENED TO GET THAT SAME ONE JUST A FEW DAYS PRIOR. SO THE QUESTION IS..... IS LOVE AROUND THE CORNER? OR DO I EAT TO MUCH CHINESE FOOD?

IS THIS A BLESSING OR IS THIS A CURSE

WITH EVERY PASSING DAY I SEE THE SUN SHINE BRIGHTER. THE CLOUDS ARE SLOWLY LIFTING AND THE FOG THAT HAS SURROUNDED MY HEAD GETS LIGHTER. ITS DAY BREAK AND DAWN IS WELL ON HER WAY. SHE IS BEAUTIFUL AND I COULD JUST STAY IN THIS MOMENT FOREVER

WHO'S HANDS ARE YOU TIED TO?

"YOUR HANDS ARE TIED TO BLIND MEN, WHOSE HANDS ARE TIED TO BLIND MEN

THIS WEEK I AM ONLY GOING TO QUOTE THE CHARIOT

FOR THE NEXT WEEK OR SO IM ONLY GOING TO QUOTE THE CHARIOT. SO LETS SEE WHAT WE CAN LEARN.

"LOVE IS EASIER MADE THEN KEPT"

THE CHARIOT

IN JUST A FEW SHORT HOURS I WILL BE AT ONE OF MY FAVORITE PLACES IN TOLEDO WATCHING ONE OF MY FAVORITE BANDS....... THE CHARIOT. THEY ARE AWESOME AND IF YOU LIKE THEM THAT MAKES YOU EQUALLY AWESOME.

TODAY I GOT MY HAIRCUT

TODAY I GOT MY HAIRCUT BY AND OLD FRIEND THAT I HAVE NOT SEEN IN A VERY LONG TIME. I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY THAT WHEN A FRIEND IS A FRIEND, THEY ARE A FRIEND NO MATTER HOW LONG IT HAS BEEN

ZOMBIES.... NAZI ZOMBIES

TODAY I PLAYED NAZI ZOMBIES ON XBOX WITH ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS FOR FIVE STRAIGHT HOURS. YES I DID SAY FIVE. AND YES I WOULD LOVE FOR XBOX TO PAY ME FOR WRITING THIS BUT THEY DONT, AND I LOVE THAT GAME. HANDS DOWN LOVE IT.

SO WITH ALL THAT SAID AND THINKING ABOUT THE WORLD TODAY AND HOW WE AS HUMANS ACT AND REACT WITH EACH OTHER, I TEND TO WONDER............ ARE WE ALL JUST ZOMBIES? DO WE ALL JUST WALK AROUND DAY TO DAY WITH THE SAME ROUTINE? DO WE ACTUALLY HAVE FREEDOM AND MAKE OUR OWN CHOICES? DO WE WALK EXTRA SLOW WITH A CRAZED LOOK IN OUR EYE THAT SAYS "I WANT TO KILL/EAT YOU", OR ARE WE SO DEAD TO THE WORLD THAT WE WANT TO KILL/EAT OURSELVES?

I GUESS TODAY I'M ON AN "IMPACT" KICK. SO MY CHALLENGE/QUESTION TO YOU IS......... DID YOU IMPACT SOMEONE TODAY OR WERE YOU JUST A ZOMBIE?

CAN WE ALL LEARN FROM EACH OTHER?

I WONDER IF MY EYES ARE OPEN WIDE, OR DO I KEEP THEM HALF CLOSED TO AVOID THE PAIN. ARE EXCUSES EVEN AN OPTION? WATCH AND YOU MAY LEARN SOMETHING. IF YOU ARE LUCKY YOU MIGHT JUST LEARN SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF.

REJOICE IN BOTH FOR WE LEARN FROM EVERYTHING

SOMETIMES WE CAN STAND ON TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN AND SCREAM WITH GREAT JOY, AND SOMETIMES WE ARE IN THE VALLEY AND THE WIEGHT OF THE WORLD IS ON OUR CHEST

DID YOU SEE THAT? THE SKY JUST TURNED PURPLE

I THINK THAT IT IS LAUGHABLE HOW US AS HUMANS CAN BE COMPLETELY SELFISH WHEN IT COMES TO OUR SELVES. LET ME EXPLAIN.

I HAVE NOTICED MORE THAN ONCE IN MY LIFE, THAT WHEN WE HAVE FRIENDS OR RELATIONSHIPS, AT A DROP OF A HAT IF THE GRASS "LOOKS" GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE WE WILL DROP OUR FRIENDS OR LOVED ONES IN A HEART BEAT. WE TEND TO HAVE NO REGARD FOR HOW LONG THEY HAVE BEEN IN OUR LIVES OR HOW LOYAL THEY HAVE BEEN. IT IS AS IF WE AS HUMANS HAVE MADE A QUIET PACT WITH EACH OTHER SAYING THIS IS OK. WE LET OTHER PEOPLE INFLUENCE OUR DECISIONS SO MUCH THAT THEY NO LONG ARE OUR OWN.

SO WHAT HAPPENED TO RESPECT AND LOYALTY? WHAT HAPPENED TO THINKING FOR OURSELVES?

STARTING OVER

I FIND IT WEIRD THAT I AM WELL ON MY WAY TO 30 AND TODAY I COMPLETELY STARTED MY LIFE OVER.

WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU .......

TODAY I WILL HAVE TO DO ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS IN MY LIFE. I KNOW THAT THIS IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO AND I'M NOT REGRETTING ANY OF IT BUT IT IS STILL VERY HARD. WELL YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY. "WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER". THIS CHANGE HAS BEEN A LONG TIME COMING AND I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO WHAT THE FUTURE HAS FOR ME.

LOVE IS A CHOICE

SO WHAT IF I TOLD YOU EVERYTHING YOU DID WAS A CHOICE AND WITH VERY FEW EXCEPTIONS OUR LIFE IS A DIRECT RESULT OF THE CHOICES WE MAKE. WHAT IF I TOLD YOU THAT LOVE IS A CHOICE. WHAT IF I TOLD YOU THAT IF YOU DID NOT WAKE UP EVERYDAY AND MAKE THE CHOICE OF LOVE THAT YOU WILL LOSE IT.

LOVE IS A CHOICE. THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I HAVE FIRMLY BELIEVED MY WHOLE LIFE. I CAN REMEMBER BEING IN HIGH SCHOOL AND WRITING NOTES TO MY GIRLFRIEND AND IN THE CLOSING LINE I WOULD WRITE "CHOOSING TO LOVE YOU, TIM" I DIDNT REALLY KNOW WHAT I WAS SAYING SO LONG AGO BUT I BELIEVE THAT EVEN AT A YOUNG AND NIEVE AGE MY MIND WAS TRYING TO FILL ME IN ON THIS GREAT MYSTERY. I CAN REMEMBER GROWING UP AND WATCHING MY PARENTS GET DIVORCED AND REMARRIED MANY TIMES OVER AND WONDERING, "HOW CAN I BREAK THE CYCLE?" I CAN RECALL TELLING MYSELF OVER AND OVER AGAIN THAT I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE MY PARENTS.

SO WHAT IF THIS CONCEPT OF LOVE BEING A CHOICE IS CORRECT? WHAT IF EVERYDAY WHEN YOU WAKE UP YOU AND YOUR SPOUCE(BOYFRIEND, GIRLFRIEND) ACTIVELY CHOSE LOVE? WHAT IF IN YOUR DAY TO DAY LIFE YOU JUST CHOOSE TO LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR? WOULD YOUR WHOLE LIFE CHANGE WITH THAT VERY ACT? WOULD YOU NOT GET UPSET AT THE LITTLE THINGS? DONT GET ME WRONG, LIFE WILL STILL THROW YOU A CURVE BALL FROM TIME TO TIME BUT I WONDER IF THIS CHANGE IN THOUGHT WOULD MAYBE SLOW IT DOWN

I THINK IN RELATIONSHIPS FOR THIS TO WORK BOTH PARTIES HAVE TO BE COMMITTED TO THE IDEA. IM NOT SAYING THIS IS THE ULTIMATE WAY TO SAVE OR TO KEEP YOUR RELATIONSHIP IN TACT BUT I BET IT WILL GIVE YOU A FIGHTING CHANCE.

LYRICS THAT I WROTE TODAY

I LOVED YOU SO MUCH THAT MY HEART STOPPED BEATING. NOW YOU ARE JUST A DISTANT PAST, A FACE IN SOMEONES ELSES FRAME. A TIME AND PLACE I LONG TO FORGET

SO TURN AND WALK AWAY. WHEN I SEE YOU AGAIN I WILL PRETEND, THAT I DONT KNOW YOU. SO TURN AND WALK AWAY BECAUSE THIS IS THE END. SO JUST TURN... TURN... TURN.