I CAN FEEL THE WITHDRAW. IT IS LIKE A BORING MOVIE....LONG AND DRUG OUT. I CAN FEEL MY HEART HARDENING AND I DO NOT LIKE IT. I KNOW THE PATH AND I HAVE STAYED THE PATH BUT WITH EVERY PASSING DAY I FEEL MY LEGS WEAKENING TO THE POINT OF EXHAUSTION. I FIND HOPE WITH EVERY LAUGH AND SMILE BUT WHAT I WANT IS SOME SUBSTANCE. A RELEASE....THE FEELING OF CHRISTMAS MORNING WHEN I WAS YOUNG. COULD IT BE THAT IM TAINTED AND MY EXPECTATION IS TO HIGH? OR AM I AFRAID OF WHAT IS NEXT?